“Oops, I got a little winded today”.
I think I got sick, homesick would be the right diagnosis. Perhaps it was the cooler weather or not being able to find the right temperature in our home the last couple weeks. Maybe it had to do with crawling into a cold bed because the heat was turned to 65 during the night. For some reason when the heater runs too much, I get all stuffy and can’t breathe (TMI, sorry). My dry chapped skin was slathered in lotion. And the cloudy skies loomed the majority of the time. Signs of spring, well there were no signs of spring and we even had a light dusting of snow last week.
Whatever it was, something messed with my head and I found myself towards the end of our stay quite homesick for sunny California. If laughter is the best medicine, then sunshine is preventative care. Oh never mind me, that was my thought as I woke up to sunshine this morning.
I did some reflecting while there. I thought, “Why don’t I remember any of those things while we lived there”? Sure, we went through the motions but never gave it a thought. It all boiled down to the fact that we moved north with a very positive attitude. We wanted to be there, it was a choice we made. I enjoyed the pretty white fluffy snow (still do) and we embraced life because that is where we were and being together is home. By embracing change, the other little things did not matter. Life was good, we enjoyed our time and would have continued enjoying life right there if that was where we were going to live. I elect happiness; it’s such a pretty way to accept the inevitable changes in this life. As we all know, change is coming.
The beauty of change is allowing new and exciting things into our lives. There’s a certain amount of anxiety when change slaps us unexpectedly but it’s how we deal with it. We must not fight against it, rather work with it and deal with it and allow it to take us in new directions. After all, change is what makes us who we are and takes us where we’re going. And I for one have to say that I love where change has brought us and will continue to embrace it one way or another as change is coming.
I will insert that hubby and I both accepted losing everything in the event he couldn’t find a job all those months ago. We talked about what we would do and where we would go. We debated what we would do with our retirement fund in the event things got really bad. But the one thing that sticks out in my mind is the fact that we embraced life together no matter what. We knew we had each other and that was all that mattered. And we would continue living and loving life together no matter what. It’s not what we have that defines us but how we live and love the ones closest to us. They are truly what matter most. And when we reach the end of our life here on earth, the only thing that will matter is to make Heaven our last great adventure, cause that day and change is coming.
Back to our trip to NY…It’s the first time we’ve really been away for an extended period of time, and it’s when the realization came that California really is home. Of course my head told me it was home but for some reason it had not fully registered. It was somewhere in the nearly two weeks of being away that it dawned on me. It came in the form of an awakening, the kind that comes softly when you turn around and wonder where it came from. The Lord only knows how long we’ll be here, so I want to continue to spend it with a happy heart and enjoy our time in the west. Who knows when the next change in life will come, but we can rest assured knowing, (join with me and say) change is coming.
Last evening, as we were flying from LA into San Diego excitement welled – And all of California seemed to echo “Welcome Home”! That’s a little island in the pacific just off the coast of southern California.
The same island – I like to think we went flying all day into the sunset
Making our turn into San Diego – The clouds rolling in over the town and coast below
The dense clouds on our entrance into San Diego
A window opened up to the town below
Below the clouds – We’re Home My Love! I can’t think of any other place I’d rather be than right here with you.